Boosie is a man in a hurry. Since leaving prison in March last year with 1,118 songs ready to record he has released three projects, but his newest album and New Year’s Day gift, In My Feelings (Goin’ Thru It), arrives with an even greater sense of urgency, given that Boosie was diagnosed with cancer just weeks ago. Fortunately he has since been treated (apparently successfully), but this latest reminder of mortality is only further proof that despite his longed awaited freedom, Boosie will never be truly out of the woods. Between this cancer scare and his duties as a rapper, father, partner, and son, life remains complex. “Peace seems so hard to find,” he laments on ‘Roller Coaster Ride’, describing the severe realities of freedom—”On parole / One feet in the pen, one feet out the door—you know how that go”.
Boosie has confronted such situations before, but cancer heightens the sense of drama in In My Feelings (Goin’ Thru It)—”Cancer got me scared like I’m about to leave this bitch.” As with much of his recent work (see ‘Letter 2 Pac‘), Boosie remains consumed with his legacy, considering his responsibilities as a father (“What if I died today? / Couldn’t go home, tell my kids how much I love them”), and time lost in prison (“I just wanna feed my fam / Ask for ass on Instagram / Relive every day I was in the pen missing, man”). The album is relentlessly bleak; there are few moments of humour, and hope is always conditioned: “Trying to smile to keep from crying,” “Hoping for better like big mama would say / But haters come for me, magazines they run and they lie about the things I say.” Sparse, melancholy production dominates this landscape, where “The rain comes down so hard.”
But Boosie’s not entirely a pessimist—more a realist. As he explains on ‘Forgive Me Being Lost’, his life was never destined to be comfortable, and on ‘I Know They Gone Miss Me’ he is confident that he will be remembered as a legend (“They gon’ cry tears for Boosie Boo, that’s for certain”). Boosie is right—he remains compelling throughout the album, retaining his status as one of rap’s most charismatic operators. The raw immediacy of In My Feelings (Goin’ Thru It) makes it somewhat singular in the contemporary rap scene, and a noteworthy entry within Boosie’s own catalogue.